Thursday, June 30, 2005


i didnt manage to get my nap afterall. rarh. bathed and didnt have the urge to sleep already. boo.



today we presented our chinese story thing. we were the first group (like what we all anticipated) but this time twc didnt call weiyan but she called me. so i was the culprit. wth. =/ ehh actually i truthfully think that ours was like the most proper one. (duh we practised) HA. then english period was also rather slack. do some oral things. boring. music was fun! (: percussion simply rocks. i should have joined djy in the first place. uhh. got back math test. didnt fail but still v lousy. BLEAH. today was mdm tay's last lesson with us. ms ngau didnt come today. then ms seah also didnt come today. tuigee's lesson was rubbish. we copy our essays during his period he also never catch. even if he walks up to your table, &you start to panic but he still wont catch. lol. then last lesson mdm nora also never come. yeah slack day. (:


ehh third lang. also quite sian. yeo sensei is damned hella good teacher. (: at least i get what she's teaching today. lol. sehkia is a total sucker and bastard. oh and yeo sensei calls me and feltay by our chinese names now. damned gay! i hate. yucks. twinnie argued that his name was zhihe and not cheehei and feltay and i were like laughing like MAD. whatever. moo.


then took 53 home. nice trip home. yeah. (= some arses i know were on the bus. (you know who) today never go gelek, cos gena's dad came to pick her. so i went home. SIANNED. rarh. actually wanna go compasspoint and gelek but sheesh. idea just vanished with a POOF. nvm. another day. next tuesday i aint going for jap cos got newater excursion. then thurs aft 3rd lang got syf concert. miss some bus trips then. and geleking sessions. LOL. tsktsk.


oh and didum's mad. REALLY. i think it's spoilt. maybe faulty. blooooody. i take good care and treat it tenderly but it still liddat! WTH. (maybe zen is just no good laa) man. HA. im gonna read troubleshooting methods again. ALL of them. sigh. LETS PRAY THAT DIDUM SURVIVES THIS ORDEAL AGAIN. the problem now: BATTERY PROBLEM. madness. i charged it. full batt. on it at school. full batt then 1 second later empty batt. RARH. then off. cannot on already. batt flat. WTF!? but the battery is NEW okay. i opened the NEW one today. stupid didum. didum's going heawire lahs. I WANNA CURE IT BUT HOW?! tell me. you. tell me.


well okay rather boring day but it passed rather fast.
&you know i cant smile wout you- (:


7:01 PM


im rather tired now. im yawning like a mad arse in front of the computer. maybe i'll blog later after napping. WAIT FOR MY POST LATER if you're patient enough..


6:16 PM
Wednesday, June 29, 2005


HELLO. i slept super early last night. i rolled from the sofa downstairs to my bed upstairs and msged people before i fell asleep. oh man i love sleeping! i wanna sleep early again! but today cannot la, need to chiong book review. ahhhh. and do math, jap compo etc etc. madness.



today. hmm i kept crapping with nat in class today. got alot rubbish to talk. lol. so didnt really pay much attention during some boring periods. (must i state what are they? rather obvious.) ms ngau aint too bad yeah? ehh. but her rules are rather gay lah, like MUST hand up hw on the next school day or what. then today 2 periods of math just flew by. fast. &we're changing practically all our teachers now. lol. except those like twc da old hag, ms wee etc. yeah you know. maybe you dont. aww too bad. then had pe today. got new teacher again. sian. ehh ran 4 rounds to prepare for jogathan. more sianned! ahh. we were supposed to play bball after that but god played a fool of us and it rained. so there goes our bball. bye- ):


oh then after recess we had geog. new teacher again. ms ng or what. lol. ehh. she's a very slack teacher, likes to watch tv, laze around, slack, shop etc. ha. "our kind". yeah. so the whole geog lesson was slack lah, we just lazed around. so gay.
the last four periods were SUPER HELLA BORING! twc's and loo's. WTH. i didnt fail tingxie.! (: lol. her period was super boring and crappy man! if she hears you speak english during hcl lesson she will niao you say all those rubbish about chinese, say you not pro in english blah blah. all the shit lah.
loo's lesson was boring too. just copy copy copy. but it was a very crappy period of time. lol. how can they schedule loo's lesson at the end of the day?! it's like so sleepy! boo.


played bball today during 1.35 break. neutral.
lit lesson was hella sianned. i didnt even pay a second of attention. was crapping with nat. sleeping members of the class. rarh. lit skit is next week. lucky. ^^

then aft sch ended we went to do chinese project, or rather, oral. man. twc is sick in the head. tmr i betcha we're gonna be the first group, thanks to that god ms foo weiyan. wth. dieded must memorise by tonight! shit.
went to play bball with the bballers after that. many many bballers lah. nat went home, chiong her book review. hai. ehh i ended up playing with comint, qianye, gaille and someone i dunno. think their senior? hmm. quite fun, played in the rain and we had to sacrifice our shoes to get the ball outta the net. stucked there. lol. got myself all wet, esp the hair part. (messy again!) not in the mood to play bball though, wet weather the ball slippery and court also slippery. =/ ha but nice lah the experience. long time never play bball already. (=


went for erhu lesson. sianned i got thrashing from mary. LOL. dont care man. im gonna start practising from tmr anyway. oh u know mary farted in the room? and like in front of me?! wtf. i was like -.-" LOL. LMAO. then she said she had to go to the toilet cos she got stomachache. GAY MAN. nvm nvm.



i forgot to mention when we were at kovan mrt yesterday we met sebastian and some guy from holy also. LOL. i didnt know it was them. then gena was like "that's sebastian leh." we already passed each other and when i turned back he turned back too. so gay! so suakoo! hahas. i couldnt recognise him man, though last time i sat with him in 3I or what. cant rmb. lol we always scold f word and spit profanities everywhere. damned gay. HA.



gotta chiong book review. tsktsk.


8:54 PM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005


WEIRD DAY LAH. MY DAY ENDED OFF SO...WEIRD. I FEEL UTTERLY FUNNY.




hello. i was almost late for school again. and i got kbed by my mum in the car on the way to school. yeah she was kbing me since last night, when i broke the damned gay news that i wasnt invited to dhp. but hey im gonna opt when dhs allows us to. im gonna! LOL. she was saying that im stupid cos i couldnt even get into dhp. hello? u know other classes even those arses whose position is like 30+ can get in and ME, i cant? ugh. whatever.


then the first period we had hcl. tingxie. i didnt really study for it lah but overall i guess im able to pass? then 3 periods of d&t. super slack today. supposed to do individual and group project but shermaine, wangwang and i didnt accomplish a single shit. whatever. hey i was helping shermaine chiong her homework man. her math. yeah it was tough to imitate her handwriting, esp writing those X-s. blah. and the 4 and those equation things. im sucha kind soul right! and she was like, ooi you still talk there, hurry copy lah. ehh. next time dont help you already! anyway, i wonder how she did for today's match. i hope it's a brilliant smile i see on her face tmr. ha. (:


art was rather gay today. our new art teacher's called mrs goh. she's damned young, damned tanned, damned slim and rather tall. and she's a MRS. woah. oh and back to what we did. we went to art room today for the first time in our lives. it was rather dirty but there were superb paintings there! ha. very very nice ones. and the sculptures are so REAL. anyway, we each prepared a bottle for the lesson and we just had to fill it with water and pour some acrylic paint in it and sshake-it! hahas. all the colors must be different and it goes on a first come first serve basis. mine was blue. i didnt have to do anything. just add paint. HA. the blue was nice. and when art ended we all decided to have all our bottles up on the notice board, so now they are all arranged on the notice board. multi-colored! :D


&today was a day when i actually enjoyed SCIENCE for the FIRST TIME in my life?! physics. rocks. actually i think the teacher rocks. outta ms ng, mdm sim e sucker, she rocks. ehh. ms seah right? two periods felt like they flew by. damned fast today. ha.



screw the third lang bus. there was only one bus and we had to squeeze but in the end the auntie told us that another one was coming soon so we decided to wait. it came at 2.20. LOL! we were late for third lang. nvm i was hoping i could pon jap quiz anyway. (x
uhh. tell you good news. we changed jap teacher and classroom! LOL. now 3rd level. and now teacher is yeo sensei. ultimate rocker. chua sensei: screw you.
feltay didnt come today. ahh. nvm. i was seated beside fongsun. uh. the middle row the 4th row. jap lesson was just like...revision? we already did all those and she's going through again. nvm. waste time. baa.


took 53. with gena. twinnie looked lonely on the bus. today he spiked hair mans, so gay. -.-" ehh yeah then we went to kovan. passed by the bowling centre and decided to go in and look look. then guess what we saw?! MSHS BOWLERS. WTF?! lol. surprised. they having trng i think. hahas.
we walked to heartland mall to get food like gummies and drinks then we walked back to the bowling centre and sit there watch them bowl. lol. gena actually wanted to go bowl too but i didnt want to. so maybe this friday after youth day we go bowl then go play mahjong. sianned.
then we sat there and decided to go home since got nth to do. walked back to kovan mrt. then gena went to top up her card and when we enter the mrt that time the station manager came and stopped us and we were like HUH. ? ha it was about gena's card lah. her card isnt the sec sch one. that one she lost it. uhh she was using the children concession ez link card. then she top up that time they saw it and saw her using to get in so they came over and stopped us. it's a crime man. wtf. to use children's concession card. LOL. then they talked for a while and then he said he wont confiscate the card and warn her not to use it again. we went down the mrt and were feeling super queer. BAFFLED like shit. funny. hmm. yeah then took mrt home.

im reaching home like around 7pm everyday? thats late man. who cares. nananipoopoo.
walking home that time i saw mshs people again. wtf. i keep running into them. then i realised my neighbour he also mshs. i just rmbed. wl. today's weird. super. and got alot of funny things happened. hmm. =/ guailan day.



IM GONNA WATCH MY BLEACH. 5 EPS. SHIOK.


7:11 PM
Monday, June 27, 2005


i felt like the world was collapsing on me a moment ago. i felt like crying and pouring my woes to someone, but no one was there. sigh. no one would ever be there. no one would.




didum's status: spoilt. just now. i had a heart attack. it cant charge and when i attempt to switch it on it froze there and it's always freezing there. "CREATIVE" and the "ZEN MICRO" never came. i panicked and adrenaline coursed through my veins. i took out the battery several times and placed it back but it will on itself and "CREATIVE". HANG-ed. ugh. i even went to open the new battery and tried. gazillions of thoughts bombarded me and i felt strangled. i felt relatively suay. oops, it's VERY VERY EXTREMELY.



then i read something. some zen micro thing.
More information: Creative Knowledge Base
Resolve and troubleshoot technical queries at Creative's 24-hour self-help Knowledge Base. Go to www.creative.com and select your region.
i fumbled for the website. skimmed through every troubleshooting method there is and TADA.
Creative Zen Micro Essential Troubleshooting
my saviour!
scanned quickly through every tip.
then, How To Reset A Zen Micro appeared.
Most Zen Micro related difficulties such as "not detected", "player freezes at bootup", can be resolved by resetting it through its recovery mode.
mine's it freezes at bootup. so i carried out the steps. WOAH. saved. SAVED.
cleaned didum up and rebooted it. SAVED. IM SAVED.
i tested it. "ZEN MICRO" finally appeared. IM SAVED!
(but i dont know which is the new and the old battery now...)


hey. at least ONE good thing for the day? (=


9:16 PM


WTF. kelvin is an arse! YOU ARSE! dont friend you.
i mean it, I DONT FRIEND YOU LIAO!
hahas.



okay. today was UTTERLY DISASTROUS. one of the worst day in my entire life. first day of school is like the end of the world for me. ugh.
i just went to watch initial d. was nice la. got edison chen! THATS WHY. (=



oh. i was kinda late for school. madness. i met woeixin at the side gate and we walked to the parade square together. she's so cute man! HA. gay. mr kiw's catching people who dyed their hair during sch holidays. and also those whose fringe is below the eyebrown. wtf. i dont care man i aint gonna cut. hahaha. and yeap nat rebonded her hair. funny looking arse. (MAID.)

the first period today was science. we switched to physics today. didnt really learn anything. and our physics teacher's name is ms seah or something like that. i was chionging through math during her period so i didnt really manage to catch anything she said. rarh. whatever. i'll pay attention tmr.
then maths period. wth. math test was damned sucky! i flopped alright. i hate graphs to the earth's core man. dont even know a thing. and mdm tay doesnt teach us anymore, now is this teacher called ms ngau. she even taught us how to pronounce her name properly and corrected us when we called wrongly. oh whatever. anyway, mdm tay's gonna retire this week so it doesnt make any difference if we change teachers today or on friday.

assembly was about jogathon and some speech by mr sng lah. jogathon we must run 3.2km! boys must run 4.8km, worse. wth. and wear that stupid camp tee. yucks. i hope it rains. ha. oh ya we gonna have spotcheck! dunno when. oh yes! 18 july that week we no need to go school! HAHAHAHA! it's ELEARNING WEEK dude! hurreh! (((:

english period was just mere slacking yeah. there was this teacher who came along with ms wee, mrs audrey soh or something, she kept staring at our group. me nat shermaine qian. ya we were talking rubbish there la, and not discussing about the questions. hahas. anyway, tmr's shermaine's first match. against junyuan. jiayou! YOU CAN DO IT! ha. must win man. must get into nationals. (=

hcl period. boring. doubles.
2pm went to get history papers. shit la the hist teachers suck. they make us sit there and hear them crap for about 1 to 2 hours? and then give us back our results at the end of the whole thing? i scored badly. deproved by like 11 marks. OH MAN. i must work harder. I WORKED SO FUCKING HARD FOR THAT PAPER! 5 days studying. reach home, study till 12am. wth! hai.
then actually me aud nat were supposed to go watch initial d, but when we hopped into the cab gena appeared outta nowhere and she got pulled in. ehh. lol.
took cab to bugis. realised that there the movie starts at 5. then we all cannot so we go buy straits times look for nearest cinema which starts earlier. so we went to tampines. century square. that movie started at 4.15, we were late duh. bought the tickets. front row. the 2nd row. it's still ok. at least i get to see edison close up. LOL. nvm.
the movie was GREAT. except the ending was a little abrupt. yeah. funny ending. edison's SO BLOODY CUTE! (: jay chou was like speeding nonchalently. seh. edison and shawn looked a lil tensed up at times. but they're cuter than jay. ha. too bad edison isnt the main character. sigh. nvm. (:

movie finished we all chiong go home. me and gena took 72. we were exceptionally quiet in the bus today. i felt so bloody tired man and i dont wanna crack stupid jokes on sucha stupid day. on the bus i was looking into the sky at the clouds and searching for millions of answers. rarh. the feeling was so sucky. i feel tremendously bad today. huh. dont ask me to cheer up la, im not thinking too much. even auddie has eyes to see and she could even tell when i was depressed. hai. im depressed today. maybe i'll get to cheer up later. you'd never know when my mood swings to a higher level. im weird alright.


a million words would not bring you back
i know
because i've tried
a million tears would not bring you back
i know
because i've cried


7:24 PM
Sunday, June 26, 2005


sigh. my right hand's thumb feels a little dislocated today. therefore i have problems smsing using my thumb and also writing. sheesh. plus my back, still pain. stiff yeah. and also my right eye is hurting. oh i realised that everything is going heawire at the right side of my body. lol. when i was walking from hougang mrt back home just now, i almost fell asleep while walking back. and then i told myself, im tired and must rest early today. boo.



today. today's the last day we can rot at home. sch's reopening tmr. i dont like the thought of it. though it's the truth, it's reality. not a deception. there're so many things i want to do but haven done. there're also many things i want to clear up but i think i missed the opportunities. hmm i dont think i would ever have the chance again. what to do? now i'd just have to carry on with life yeah? doing mundane and insipid stuffs everyday. same old boring and gruelling stuffs. sigh. life's like that. boring. hai. maybe i should contemplate the thought of dying, like veronika. outta my mind!


well today we did debates and argumentative essay. (again!) the debate was about having a new Human Race 2, and making another planet with the same constituents as Earth a new place to live in, which means Human Race 2 will be developed there. then we had 10 choices of arses to choose whom we think is ideal to be sent to...yeah that planet. ehh. the choices were rather gay, and kinda obvious if you stared at the choices for some moments. ha. i would send lee hsien loong, eunice olsen, and keith goh to that planet. i dunno wads my last choice. i know..ME! lol. no la. but, for now i would send twc, mdm tay, mr goh and my jap teacher outta space immediately. get rid of them. elimination! YAY. then we can all not hand up hw tmr! HAHAHAHAHHA. :D


im currently downloading bleach ep4. i haven watched ep2 and 3. but im gonna download and then watch. yeah. more shiok. (= but i dont really have the time to watch them today. i mean, later. cos i just realised there's geog period tmr so HA i have to complete my articles. i did one jianbao today. that jianbao was SUPER NICE TO CRAP! ha. actually i asked auddie if we go watch initial d tmr to celebrate hist papers, but the answer is still not yet to be confirmed. hai. if we miss tmr i dont think we would ever have any day that everyone of us is free so we can go out tgt. oh but there's nth that we can celebrate outta the hist papers actually. i think i wont do very well, but i hope i can get an a1 for that paper at least cos i studied like a mad woman for it. 4 bloody days i took. and i totally neglected h.econ. hah. im so gonna fail that paper. HECK ALRD. it's all over. and fuck! I HVEN SIGNED REPORT BOOK! wth. i hate tmr man. suckkaye!
now i have to go pack my english file since there's english lesson tmr cos the timetable was changed. shat. argh. i'll sacrifice my anime watching time then. and computer using time too. bloody.


oh yes! bleach ep4 just reached 100%! YAY. (:


you know i always read random blogs, then i compare those teens around my age with myself. their lives are so different from mine. dont understand why too. man. i think my life sucks. baa. you wont ever know why.





byebye 24 hour online.
byebye computer.
byebye 12pm waking up.
byebye rotting.
byebye slacking.
byebye sleeping late.
byebye free time.
hello dunman high school.
hello 2A.
hello math test.
hello history paper.
hello homework.
hello stress.
hello DHSCO.
hello there, the angel from my nightmare.
(i know you think im mad.....)


8:58 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2005


doesnt that sound peculiar?




oh no just the lyrics of the song scar. it rocks totally dude! (: get the mp3 from me if you want. i cant get the tune and lyrics off my mind. whee.



currently downloading bleach episode 2. yay. im getting hooked onto animes. jap ones especially. they do my jap more good yeah? i watch inuyasha and shaman king on tv. yeap. though i cant really understand but overall still ok. (this proves the standard of my jap)

hmm i kinda sprained my back. one part of it. the lower part. what do you call that? i dunno. near the spinal area. well it's rather pain and feels a little stiff. aww. dont cha pity me? (gay) i didnt even know i sprained it man! no wonder i felt rather stiff today when i went out. to relief the pain temporarily, i've placed my pillow on my chair so i can lean on it. ha.

speaking about going out, i went out today at about 6 something? rather late though. after i watched bleach episode 1. i even had to download a new plug in for my comp to get the movie working! haha, so now i can watch animes until im contented! how nice!
oh shit. back to going out. i went to orchard with my mum and sis. went to get my book from kinokuniya. yay and i finally got it! YES! one thing off my list. never ending list. rarh. ehh it's rather expensive, cost around 20 bucks. and it's rather thin, not like da vinci code, thick and cheap. i know my book's gonna rock my dreams dude! but sadly, now i cant find time to read it. i shall read it before bedtime then! that's one of my habits. weird.
anyway, kinokuniya is very very efficient. okay i was at counter d, and i explained to them i was looking for my book. then the girl made a phonecall and told me to go collect my book at counter A which was like a stroll away? god. i didnt have to scale kinokuniya for that book! just a snap of my fingers and i was found buying the book already. YAY. the book's gonna rock. (=
my mum bought a mango top and handbag. wth it's kinda ex. 30 bucks for a tiny handbag? -.-" but it's q nice la. okok. hmm.



i did one geog article today! congrat me! HAHA. maybe later im gonna do another one. and JIANBAO. yay. then it can be considered that i kinda finished my holiday homework. if you exclude the book review, math sup ex 9 and reading of mobiao. and some other minor stuffs which can be done at the eleventh hour. yeap. :D
oh yes, tll homework. sheesh! one look at it and i feel like sweeping it into the dustbin. i hate to write argumentative essays! they suck! i cant argue well! duh.
ehh. if you're reading this and you received my quiz on bebo, DONT TELL ME IM GAY. i did it because i was bored. pure boredom. lol. and out of curiosity. hey and many of you failed right? LOL. ha. i make the questions super damned gay so you'll fail. HAHAHA. lmao. just ignore it if you happen to receive it. IT'S GAY LA. WHATEVER.


ignition!
sshake it!
& gimme your STRENGTH!


10:52 PM
Friday, June 24, 2005


i hate it and i will continue hating it even more.
sucker.
i would rather pretend not to see anything.
get lost.


11:56 PM


i surrendered. OHHHHH. i really did.


i gave up half of section b and decided to go copy someone's when sch reopens. ehh. and section c im gonna finish soon. maybe tmr? so, im gonna say byebye to math soon.
dentist today. it's still the same old bloody colour. oh well. it feels rather tight. painful. ouch. aww.



the reason why im chionging my hw now is because i was dumb. a sotong. stupid. DUMB. ugh. to have been thinking and thinking everyday and forgetting to do my homework. and also im lazy. rarh. kill me la! i wanna DIE.



anyway, inuyasha and shaman king rocks. (: HA.
im going out tmr. means no time for homework. how. sigh. gimme an antidote!
&i think im gonna do jianbao later.
oh this song rocks.
BAD DAY by DANIEL POWTER
never heard of him before but bad day's really nice. especially when you're having a bad day. go hear it. scar by miss higgins nubbad too. ignition by r.kelly is cute.

you're still the cutest of all
no matter what.


11:00 PM


7pm. i just remembered my dental is gonna be at 7.45pm.
im getting sick of surfing friendster. my homework is like UGH frigging shit now i dont really like the thought of homework avalanching on me. =X
oh i added this FLEA girl, same name, same nickname. ha. felicia, flea. lol. flea is sucha weird name. especially when you're watching tv. cartoons. yeap. i was watching one just now (a cartoon) and one of the characters was a flea named flea. and they went 'flea' 'flea' 'flea' and i thought they were calling me. -.-" lmao. &once i passed by this place, i cant recall what issit, but it had a signboard which showed flea market. haha. MY market? i will need that 's after the flea word. :D i searched friendster for flea and it happened that only 4 people out of like 80 something people were from singapore. that's why, flea is sucha gay nickname. and special and rare. that's why people rarely have that name. lol. only i have. thanks to ms. leo jinghuan.
flea. im already used to people calling me that. i dont mind it actually. last time i did. i would rather be called fel last time but now..hmm. who cares. just shrug it off.

off to homework land. bye.


5:53 PM


sweeleng msged me today. umm i wasnt like trying to be mean or what, i didnt even have the intention to. it was rather surprising that she msged me. it's been like donkey years since i got a msg from an old friend. ha. come to think of it i really miss hips loads. primary school years. infantile. gay. stupid. whatever. it seems like yesterday we graduated from pri. school and now it's like gonna be 2 years already. fast uhh. anyway i guess we'll all be meeting up again quite soon, most probably on teachers' day or what. (:



i was waiting for ms. audrey lim to come back from her naruto-lunching and then i waited for like 2 whole bloody hours and she was still 'away'. ahhh. nvm. i went to do a few maths sums. now im at section b already. i know some pple already finished. (eg. auddie) easy feat to her (YOU KNOW WHY OKAY!) ugh nvm. i shall go through the arduous process of having to rack my rusty brain for answers. hmm. ARGH.
i thought ms. audrey lim pangseh-ed me just now man! scare me! oh we're surfing through friendster now. i love to surf friendster, makes me have a good laugh. and i like to criticise people man. we're gonna add STRANGERS. :DD


dental appointment later.


4:19 PM
Thursday, June 23, 2005


im going to the dentist tmr. my power chain just broke. and it feels like it's dangling there. (maybe i'll get to change my colour then) :D


9:38 PM


i've decided to save the trouble of having to make a skin, so im gonna download one. YAY. :D
oh. now im gonna say BYEBYE to my 10 pages of xizi! (d'you know what this means you fool?)
&i just saw that slip of paper twc gave us. jianbao- content must be less than 83 words and reflections more than 400 words. LMAO. i already did ONE in an HOUR. I DONT CARE MAN YOU DO YOURSELF. my chinese's standard is pathetic so i dont care dont care dont care. byebye. im gonna do another jianbao later. but not with that stupid criteria. obviously! duh.


FOUR DAYS TO SCHOOL REOPENING.
embarking on term 3, semester 2.
im sec 2.5. going to be sec 2.75.
first day of school- MATH TEST, GET BACK HISTORY PAPERS.
will know who will be invited into the DHP.
(i know i dont stand a chance. but i do hope i get invited)
and passup homework. (i hven finished.)



HAHAHA. my mum says the next time i have my haircut i CANNOT cut punky and spiky hair already. cos she said "you know your teacher complain leh..". true. that day we had ptm, the first thing twc said about me was "YOUR HAIR CANNOT." and my mum was dreading that sentence you know. (i've received several complains about my hair. and many people asking me if i get caught by KIW) argh. it's not my fault. oh anyway im getting rather sick of my current hairstyle (cos it always gets messed up making me feel pekchek you know) so i've decided to stick to something NORMAL and FREE-FROM-COMPLAINTS. but the thing now is that i have to wait for my hair to grow longer to cut a NORMAL hairstyle. and i would rather have a hairstyle which is neat and not ugly (i hate my current one, so suckaye). full-stop.

YAY HISTORY PAPER ON MONDAY. HOW NICE.


6:24 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005


HELLO. it's like 1.38am now& im getting the nose bleed again. maybe i have nose cancer. ? (TOUCHWOOD!) haha. i've been like that since young, and the 'oh-you're-gonna-have-nosebleed-any-minute-i-tell-you''s most often times are when i dont drink enough water and eat too much BAD stuffs. in other words, im heaty. that's when the sinister blood comes flowing outta my nose and oh man it really sucks! bleahg.



anyway, i've finished the upper part of my skin already. man i tink it really sucks so im like hesitating whether to use it or not. here to view it.
and i know it's ugly but hello? i spent like my entire night doing.. nvm. just gimme ur comments? GOOD OR BAD, i dont care.


baa. nose bleed.


11:59 PM


Strange encounter.



If you arent prepared to read my blog, then read audrey's. Her's is a sum-up of our day. I mean, her day with me and my half a day with her. Nevermind if you dont get what im trying to say.



I was supposed to have bfast with my parents in the early morning, i think we were supposed to go out before everyone's going for their own activities or what, but in the end we all gave in to sleep and didnt go for bfast. My mum says it's my fault. Cos she asked me at about 5.30am if i wanted to go still but i said i want to sleep and then the whole thing was like cancelled or what?! And hello, you all can go for bfast without me. -.-"
&oh i woke up late. LATE. 7am. Oh no. LATE.
I was rather unfortunate. Umm i think i was very suay. Sheesh.
(Anyway today reminded me of that day... YEAH that day you know it doncha)
So i decided to take mrt. Took mrt. Yeah. Then 158. (&i passed by again..)
Reached school late. Met kanpokky on the way and we managed to make our way up to the hall. I had a really GAY partner. With audrey. AUDREY LIM WENQIAN. Hmm. Nat paired up with wangwang. Oh and we four were a group (of sorts?) Whatever.
The rocket building process was rather stupid. Taping. Cutting. Rubbish flying all around.
But our rocket launched rather successfully. I got myself like half-wet? But it was FUN. &then we had some kinda theory lesson or what in the hall. Boring. Zzz.



Nat, auddie& i made our way to MACS after that thing ended. It was rather gay, but not as gay as JUNMIN, HUILING& I's KFC TRIP. (: Unforgettable experience. (gossips!)
We wanted to take spastic pictures but the response wasnt really great. Oh well then forget it.
FINE MS. AUDREY LIM i love your N7610, CLEAR CAM, BIG SCREEN. Baaaa.




We went separate ways after that. Nat&I, 30 ; auddie, 12. Yup. Byebye auddie. (OH U LIL ARSE YOU WERENT IN THE WAY LAA!)
Went to kembangan with nat. Yup played bball and forgot about the homework. (actually we wanted to do but we decided that 3hours would be enough for bball to come in. so byebye homework.)


There are many things i wanna say but i dont know how to phrase it to you. I know that there were many things you wanted to say too. Hmm.
So we played ball. And analyzed the guys. (I.e. Mr. Nice Guy, Not-so-xiao-bai-lian-guy, cute-ah-your-shooting! guy etc)
Oh i saw this guy whom i think is the kind i would like. (no intentions ok!) Came in at the right time when you asked that kinda question ..
&i shant talk about GUYS here. Byebye you arse.

Today's shooting was like in an on-off manner. Sheesh. I got hit by the bball once, a soccer ball once too. Ha. By some foreign-language speaking guys. Oh man. What the hell were they talking about?! ARE they thai or korean? Man i cant tell. Anw, i tried to avoid their balls. So unlucky.
Yup. Simply played bball for 3 over hours. Got alil sunburnt. WHO CARES. (x



Left for erhu at like 5.30 or what? Hmm mary could tell in one eye that i didnt practise. (well i did, for one day when i was feeling super bored, if you read that entry then you'd know)
And today's 'exercise' was really tiring. My fingers were like super duper painful after erhu. The 'exercise' was- 'HOW TO STRENGTEN YOUR LAST PUNY FINGER, LEFT HAND'. Great exercise indeed! -.-" Played and played those parts again,again and again. Ohgod. Pain. And mary didnt pity us. Bleahg.


Dinner was rather lousy today. I was famished and god we had to wait so bloody long for our dinner. We actually thought that dinner was gonna be good, but in the end it happened to be tasteless. (i think they forgot to add salt!) Oh well but nvm.



Hello. Im gonna make a new skin like tmr or what? HA. I will love my theme. (:
Maybe it didnt go away?
Consolations-


9:57 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005


i feel so suckaye now.
my printer is feeling rather suckaye too.
it refuses to print and is hanging there. ohman.
im unsure of the reason why i feel so suckaye.
like i said, my mood fluctuates alot. sheesh.
and so many gay people are bothering me. asking me for extra pet bottles. hello i dont wanna waste my sms-es msging you all. i would rather msg things that i feel is worthed messaging. not like- 'i dont have extra lah.' 'im bringing one lah.' 'i am wearing pe shirt lah.' 'why you all keep asking if i got extra? i dont have ok.'
and then there was this really gay person who came and bothered me online.
'tmr must bring what ah?' 'markers?' 'how many pet bottles?' 'you finish math alrd?' 'can lend me your math not?' 'audrey said your math same as ours.' 'can lend me your math anot?'
HELLO DONT BOTHER ME WHEN IM FEELING LIKE TOTAL SHIT.
anyway, im SORRY if you think im feeling a little pissed today. like the way i talk to you is like so ap and kb. im so SORRY. i just feel very very suckaye and i hate it when people are having fun when im feeling suckaye. oh and when people ask me nonsensical questions, it's SO irritating. i just need peace to sort out my thoughts.


i made this vow. and i will keep it. i will.
it just doesnt feel the same around.
i feel emptiness lurking around.
dont cheer me up. dont even try.
i cant cheer up until i feel like it.
it went away, maybe.
im not certain.


11:51 PM


GOOOD OL' DAYS
(im not referring to one subject only, mind you)



I did that special montage for feltay. I think it looks rather gay. Im no good at photoshop la cos i just cant rmb how to do this and that. Bleahg.
Anyway, i was having a FABulous time reading my chat logs a moment ago. I felt so great mans. I felt HAPPY, but it's shortlived. Right you know what? Feltay said i was cursing myself. I had this statement in one of my entries. "Happiness is shortlived right?" Uh-oh. So it comes true. It's really shortlived. I want it to be longlived, but i guess it's just something that i wish for and will never come true? (Oh man feltay will say im cursing myself again) Ohwell.



Umm. I uploaded the montage i made specially for her on photobucket. Go see.
CLICK CLICK CLICK HERE!



Oh i did HOMEWORK today. (That's a must ok)
One jianbao done- In one bloody hour. Waste time. Byebye jianbao!
Finished all of the jap revision thing- Byebye!
Did 2 pages of XIZI- Ohgod i still have like 5 pages left.
Finished my math graphs due tmr- OOH LALA! (x

Pet bottle rocket thing tmr. Whatever. This means i have to wake up early and make my way to school. How nice. ERHU tmr. Nicer.
Man i shall do my montage on some nice day. MY montage. HAHAHAHA.



It went away. I guess.
I felt like i was with it just now.
Ungrateful brat.?
Bottle it up& throw it away?
I can bottle it up, but i cant throw it away.


8:58 PM
Monday, June 20, 2005


If you were LUCKY, you would have chanced upon my blog at the RIGHT timing. I had like 20 days of entries up on ONE go for someone to READ them all. OOH so if you were the LUCKY ONE you could have read what you have missed out (cos i dont provide archives). &you wld get the whole picture. Yes, the ENTIRE picture. Oh how sad for those who didnt. I shall weep for you in silence. Muahahaha.




Do you hate that wondering feeling?
I hate it.
Do you hate the feeling of being half-hung on a rope?
I hate it.
Do you hate the feeling when things you wanna know so much are being unanswered?
I hate it, totally.


10:49 PM


i came online to ease boredom and to ease the thought of those creepy math sums. im only at paper2 part A and there's still part B& C. AHHH. doomed!
who wants to go out and play bball? NOONE. so im like rotting at home yeah? sheesh.
yesterday i was crapping online with feltay. :D
afterall, it was quite special yeah? LOL-



yeah reminds me of what i threw away.
whenever i listen to didum i would listen to yeah first.
yeah is sucha nice song.
yeah is one of my fav. songs. (:
it rocks man.



you're the light, you're the light when i close my eyes-


3:38 PM


i read this bulletin on friendster which was posted by peiting& lkj, the same one actually, it makes super duper sense. ugh. u know actually i hate it when people go 'ii lurrbbee youux'? suckaye. just distorting the worst of english, singlish. the lousiest level of singlish and english. haha, that guy was super brave to have written sucha bulletin.!




my mum is an imbecile. she confiscated all of my allowance for this week. everything, mind you. right. so i've got no money to eat. bleahg. arsehole. i'd have to survive on packets of maggi noodles at home then. i hope i survive. this is the most perfect timing on earth where you have no money (utterly none), a ton of homework waiting for you to sink into (oh yes a ton), and no food to eat (except maggi noodles& bread perhaps). aint god too cruel?!



SUPERDUPERCUTElil'arse-(: 6THENUMBER
oh well. im not thinking about it. REALLY!


11:29 AM
Sunday, June 19, 2005


so bottle up old love
&throw it out to sea(:

i threw it away. yeap. im so happy. finally got rid of the burden. :DD
i wnna thank YOU- for helping me& supporting me throughout. &hearing me complain and looking at me being schizophrenic and stuffs. hey confidante you rock to the ultimate core. (:


i wanna push you around, well i will, well i will
i wanna push you down, well i will, well i will
i wanna take you for granted, i wanna take you for granted, yeah i will, i will



must get cracking on tll's homework.
BLEAHG. and not forgetting school's homework.
i love didum. IT REPRESENTS ME. the MUSIC tells ME. it reveals ME.
i feel happy. so is didum. so is the music. (:
oh anyway. yesterday when i was on maths, i learnt a really valuable lesson suddenly.
i tapped on my hp's keypads. i've thought it out.
&you know what? im never gonna let history repeat itself again. FORGET IT LAA.
ehh. and im really careless. i cant remember where i chucked my flosses to. they cost like $11+. i better keep it from my mum or else i will get killed.


that's the reason why sometimes im feeling under
that's the reason why sometimes im feeling down


1:05 PM
Saturday, June 18, 2005


U KNOW WAD. I THINK FRIENDSTER WORKS WONDERS. =O






&i feel SO DETERMINED.
&i didnt regret hiding ITT in a corner. (:
&i know IM SO gonna NOT GIVE A DAMN alrd! :D
&&&&i feel SO HAPPY. ((:
WHEE. 3CHEEERS.
Who says i cant survive?
Who says it's gonna be painful?
Who says im gonna regret?
NEVER!!


10:06 PM


i was supposed to do my homework today right? I DID NOT. my mum ruined my plan, but nevertheless i didnt regret sacrificing my homework in exchange for a fruitful trip like this. no wait. i was forced to go. bleahg! i was reluctant initially& she kept insisting& insisting& she even went to the extent of trying to bribe me into her sweet-talk. 'if we see sport shoes then we buy ok?' YA RIGHT, like i'd believe.



ehh nvm, so i went with her. we took mrt there. alighted at somerset. U KNOW WHAT. I SAW FELOH! (: at the opposite side of the road. my mum was being damned spastic yeah. cos i told her that that's my friend who has the same name as me and she went to call 'felicia felicia felicia'. so paiseh! anw feloh was with her parents. yeap. i think my mum's a total mad arse. -.-"



my mum went to pay some bill first or what. then we went to have coffee. no i had tea. LOL. yah the cafe's aircon was damned shiok for sucha hot weather like this. :DD
we then went to buy things. DUH. shopping. bought a few bottles of shampoo& conditioners. i think they're quite good. bought 5 bottles in all, how heavy is that. bleahg. then we spent like 70+ on shoes alone. i bought two sandals of the same design but different colour. lmao. i like man! CAN WEAR GO PLAY BBALL! (x but i didnt know which colour i liked better so i bought two. -.-" got my dad a nice father's day present. and then my mum bought dental floss for me (special ones for braces) and MORE shampoos. she's mad over shampoos. bought hair dyes (of course not for me!). DUH.
yeah& i bought a bodynits top& sports bra. -.-" ehh.
&marks and spenser's chocs and biscuits! (: yay.
my mum got more high-heels for herself. SO MANY man. we were carrying big and bulky bags all around. very very heavy.
i cant rmb what else we bought. but there were MANY things. spent a ton.



then my dad came to pick us up. my mum was still energetic and upbeat but i was worn out already. she said she still wanted to go grocery shopping and im like OMAN. &she wanted to go to the IMM in jurong. -.-" my dad brought us there and we had early dinner. then i went along with my mum to imm to grocery shop. bought not much. very heavy. BOUGHT MILK! (:






THE END. what do you still expect? okay okay i will do my homework. ):


6:34 PM
Friday, June 17, 2005


FREAKING HP BILL arrived. mum screamed at me. bleahg. even more than the last one's. OHSHIT. 1200 something sms-es. she threatens to confiscate my hp. no, umm she's gonna confiscate for sure. &SEE WHO'S SMS-ING ME AND WHO AM I MSGING TO. yah i never do anything that strikes my conscience so i fear nothing u lil arse. oh& bcos gena always uses my hp to call pple. wth. my outgoing& incoming calls are high too. FREAK.


this is the perfect timing where you have no money& you have a ton of homework waiting for you. HAA.


11:59 PM


HA. i lost my VIP application form. there goes my TJC'S one as well. no wait, i didnt lose them. i just merely misplaced them. they must be somewhere in the house, hammered below all the piles of rubbish. oh, but no fret! i printed another copy. it looks nicer. (duh!) from this you can infer that im determined to apply! HAHA. but im lazy to do the essay& i dont think i can find any teachers who are gonna write the teacher's reference form for me. and, what GOOD can they write about me? -.-" nothing. ohmy.



i found my geog articles already and im gonna do reflections on them tmr. yeap. tmr will be the day. maybe i will stay up to read mobiao tonight since people like qian, gena, wang2 actually told me that it was a fannnnntasssticcccc book. and i rolled my eyes. and sighed. sheesh.



inappropriate? yah. very.
we just dont click dont we.


11:49 PM


YAY. finished chengyu. FINALLY. (x



currently piaing geog articles. see i told 'ya you reap what you sow. slacking for 3 whole bloody weeks& now the sch holidays are drawing to an end and then you will break out in cold sweat. sheesh. bleahg.
oh& my sms is SO gonna be over for this month again. DAMNED. i smsed over 30 every day. like 50 something for yesterday, 38 so far for today. ugh! shit. so im SO sorry if you msged me and i didnt reply or something. WOULDNT IT BE BETTER TO CHAT ONLINE??



right. if you wanna know why im chionging my homework now, then look at this list of undone work. (maybe you think i have very little homework but you're wrong.)

2 GEOG ARTICLES - yeaa im doing them now. ):
JAP REVISION WORKSHEETS- i did half of it already! (:
JAP COMPO- totally untouched. =X
2 JIANBAOS- im gonna do my first one tmr. bleah. i bought lianhezaobao already.
10 PAGES OF XIZI- i did TWO. that's freaking little.
BOOK REVIEW- classics. i hate. so cheem& boring. im gonna start reading my book.
MOBIAO- havent read. die!
MATH REVISION WS- did half. (:
MATH F.P- not yet. due next week. MUST DO.
CHENGYU- FINISHED. alas!
FILE LIT FILE- i just stuffed all the worksheets tgt.
LIT COVER- umm. nope.
FILE ENG FILE- HOW TO FILE?!
LIT PROJECT- left the acting. script DONE. x)
D&T PROJECT- hmm. nah. not yet.
ACC PROJECT- dunno. sheesh.



ahhhhhhhhhhhh. tell me im gonna survive.




contradicting myself?
VERY.
i hid ITT in a secluded corner- ((:


10:19 PM


i woke up upon hearing my hp ring. umm no it wasnt gena. it was feltay. she msged me. LUCKY she msged me. or else i would have continued sleeping until god-knows-when. I WAS LATE. the time was 9.19am. we were supposed to meet at 9.15am. BLEAHG.


though i was late i still took my time lah. not that i dont wanna give a damn, but i had this feeling that gena was late too. lol. &then qian msged me. i was saved! gay. we pushed the timing forward, to 11am. uhh so i went online for quite a while. then i went to have breakfast& went to meet gena.


she taught me tactics to read books fast. i.e. reading 700 words in one min. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE, for me. -.-" HA. im so gonna die for the whole of next week.!
oh we wanted to take 27 to tampines, then after getting tired of waiting for it we wanted to take 72. and as we were crossing the road, i told her i felt like taking 27 today. so we walked back. i guess those sitting at the bus-stop were like thinking, "these two girls are siao man!"
yea so we took 27. the trip to tampines wasnt far. &we got down at the right stop! :D CLEVER ARSES.

we went into the young readers section, ya for those toddlers and lower pri kiddos. you can make a hella din there and no once really cares. waited for qian. sat at a table. did project.
right. so our skit is GAY. yea i mean the theme is GAY. hahas. it's a sea of singlish and gay words and actions. shylock:gena ; antonio:me ; bassanio:nat ; narrator:qian ; PROPS&SOUNDS: shermaine. HA SHERMAINE U BTR WATCH OUT WE ARE GONNA MAKE YOU CHIRP LIKE A BIRD AND CROAK LIKE A FROG! :DD
after we completed our entire script, we went to look for classics. qian& i borrowed. but im still unsure if i should use lee harper's or emily bronte's. bleahg. bloody hell. i hate classics.
we walked to tm with qian's brother& sister after that. they were like a happy family man! LOL. qian& her siblings went to eat macs but gena&i settled for something else. we roamed for quite a while and were really fickle (cos we were broke!). ya so we went to the food court and ate. the food was nubbad. she ordered baked fish and i had black pepper chicken. nice! (:


we walked around. and contemplated the idea of being a guy. you can wear XXXXL shirts when you are like XXXS but you still will be considered hip. but when girls wear pple will think "this woman is mad!" LOL. unfair.
oh ya im going MAD over orange! im like- ooh that orange bag is nice! how nice if i have an orange pencilbox! i like that orange mummy keychain! ooooooh ORANGE. (x
i wanted to look around somemore but gena had to go cos she was really running late. nvm, one day after school we still can go gelek. ! actually we always do it after school and third lang. not once, most of the time. lol.



u know what? qian has only book review left. and me? EVERYTHING. how nice.
and then now my orange braces looks pink from far. UGH. bleahg! IM SO NOT PINK.
and i've got something impt to announce-
TODAY I WILL FINISH MY CHENGYU.
lmao.


4:24 PM
Thursday, June 16, 2005


You look like a stereotypical bimbo outside but its a different story inside. You're a nice, simple, proud and straightforward person who believes what you're doing is right. You don't change people, and you love them for who they are. Your primary goal in life is to be happy, next to being pretty. You have your detractors but you don't let them bring you down. You go out of your way to help others out even before they ask, and for that they love you.
(from kennysia)



hey,thanks for trying to help me yeah. giving me tons of advice& supporting me. i felt the need for someone to be thr to hear me voice out. but seriously i aint gonna take a step cos i dont feel the need to. im stubborn i knw. &you made me see the light. yea i dont even understand why. there's nothing good at all haa. thanks man im really doing quite well now and im gonna be fine. (:





BLOGS ARE DANGEROUS.
if you're reading this, WHY ARE YOU READING THIS? you busybody. mind your own business! AHH& PLS DO NOT TRY TO GUESS WHAT IM THINKING.


10:56 PM


U KNOW WHAT. im gonna explode. -.-" LMAO.
i should just, fuck, go offline quickly and get rest for tmr.
oh sheesh! still got tv programme i wnna watch! UGH.


ehh. i dont know why im called dahei. im not THAT seriously BLACK right? nope. no. nah. i think still alright yeah. &twinnie is almost as black (or rather, TANNED) as me, so we can call him dahei twin? hahas. or dahei version 2. ?! HAA. gay.
oh, i wnna go back to sch! so frigging bored here. &im gonna go for third lang and chat with feltay face-to-face. wah. i knw she knws how i feel RIGHT NOW. bleahg! i miss da gossips abt twinnie & kelvin & ryan & WHO-SO-EVER. LOL.
im reading some things on the net. wow i read quite a handful amount of 'fucks' today. pollution.


gena omg can u just reply quickly? im unsure of the timing tmr. blah. hell what time are we meeting? i have this feeling we will be late (we usually are) and i still remember concisely what qian msged me today. bu jian bu san. lol.


you've got me.
im stuck in this painful web.
im gonna get devoured.


9:44 PM


i went out today. it was kinda impromtu and on-the-spot decision. at least i wasnt SO bored. i got outta the house. AT LEAST.



gena came over today at about 2pm. she borrowed my math worksheet. &i wanted to go to hgang mall to get some stuffs. so i walked gena to the mrt. god she was SO emotional.
i was dressed rather slipshod. yeap i wore my xyz tee& white boardshorts which was rather big and baggy and YEAH THEY WERE BIG LAA. &my xyz is light blue so what can you conclude from that?
we went to photocopy the worksheet first. ooh then we saw shannon's ex stead. HA. so funny.
walked to the mrt& i decided to go with her to bugis. how gay am i. -.-"
gena did her math on the mrt. i was feeling rather odd. maybe the decision i made wasnt a great idea. NVM, i still went on with it.
at bugis we went to the bugis street near jiang. i was quite fascinated with it, i think it's even nicer than bugis junction.
oh then it was 3.30. gena had to go for her jiang lesson. so i sat outside jiang and did a few math questions.
then i went around to walk. i felt awkward. &bought this army green pen! I LIKE. ahh and also my fav pilot pen. i didnt buy the refill for nat, couldnt find. i also bought 5 packets of gummy. of 5 flavours. really nice. but it's for KIDS, like what the wrapper suggests. hello, im still a kiddo who still loves eating gummies. my teeth arent that strong and durable yet so i eat gummies for a living. gummies are sweet, colorful, nice-smelling and they take the shape of cartoon. gummies are soft and chewable. PRECISELY. good for people like me donning braces. HAAH.
OH i saw something that im gonna buy for feltay. :D


ehh ya. gena's class ended at like 5.45. great im like sending her off to school& then picking her up and sending her home after school. LMAO.
oh and gena was in a flurry to get me to go to orchard cos i was given this voucher or what-so-ever when i bought my stuffs. -.-" HA but i said NO.
yeah then we took the mrt home. we were kinda lame i guess. we could take the mrt straight home from dhoby ghaut but we decided that we wanted a place to sit so we took a train to outram park& then we took another train back towards punggol.
yeah, you shouldnt ask me stuffs that has been like hanging in our minds for quite a while when HOUGANG is the next stop! DUH. nvm. oh yay we're going out tmr again. early morning. do project at tampines& hmm maybe i will go with her to jiang again. i hope the librarian doesnt chase us out again. -.-"


hey you know what
i feel so bad
so bad
so sad
maybe i should go for that overseas trip
to get over. ((:
but my homework is like the mount everest
&besides i havent had the fun i wanted to have.


7:45 PM


now i have this nice song in didum.
i cant take it, what am i waiting for
my heart's still breakin' i miss you even more
&i cant fake it the way i could before
i hate you but i love you
i cant stop thinking about you
it's true...im stuck on you

you know what? huiling& i were having a midnight gay session yesterday. gay trio! too bad junmin wasnt present. HA, &now i know who's GEI already.
-.-"
&this morn the gay trio was all present. we had a very gay conversation. :DD


actually today was supposed to go play bball, but nat says it isn't on already. BLEAHG. nvm. so im gonna be stuck in the house again. WAH. i should get cracking on my hw since next week is the last week already. IT'S DAMNED FAST. not even HALF of my homework is completed. only little bit. bits and pieces here and there. maybe i should do it now.



im gonna transfer more nice songs into didum! (:
&today i woke up, i didnt feel that fuckish. YAY. means a significant improvement! GAY. -.-"
but im still feeling alil lost& confused. drts.
cos im keeping too many things in me
i feel like exploding.
i need to OPEN my mouth.
-.-"


11:02 AM
Wednesday, June 15, 2005


i should hv held on tight
i nv should've let you go
i didnt knw nth
i was stupid
i was foolish
i was lying to myself
i could not fathom that i wld ever
be wout ut love
nv imagined i'd be
sitting here beside myself
'cause baby
when you left me
i lost a part of myself
(:


10:19 PM


I HAD SUCHA GAY DAY! :D GEI. (:



i woke up at a miserable time. 7.30am. i went online& crapped with rayson. 9.45am, left the house for school.
then went to co room. huiling, junmin and waikit were there. so i sat there and slacked with junmin while waikit and huiling were packing the instrus. u knw, junmin's hip bone was pain. so we concluded that she had too much 'excitement' yesterday. ooh. GEI. oh i felt great to be in school, in the co room. (: just reminds me that im still on earth and helps me get away. ((:
anyway, thr were 3 bright-green-tee girls who came in, &you knw, one of them was like thinking i was sec3. GAY. &ask me if i play bball. funny. -.-"

right. then waikit, junmin, huiling& i went to kfc to eat. and GAY around as well. ohh! still got gossip! x) GOSSIP!
we ate. sat there and talked and talked and laughed and laughed and made a whole hella havoc in kfc. i think the staff thr are like so bs us, cos we sit there so long and talk. and we refilled our drinks. hahas.
YAY I LOVE MY SENIORS MAN! (:
they tell me things which i dunno. talking to them makes me feel more like an upper sec dude. maybe im just getting prepared for a sec3 life.
we just sat there and talked and talked. yea mostly is gossips. but FUN. oh we are spastic.
you know, waikit& huiling told me that they requested me to be in zh. -.-" hahas, i dont mind la. zh rocks alright! it doesnt suck, like some people think. &they didnt know that ivan actually existed last time. DRTS.
soon waikit left and we just sat there and stoned for some moments. then i got to know the history of zhonghu. it was rather confusing but i was still able to get the gist of everything. some things they talked about i dont really understand. HAAHS.
JUNMIN'S NEW NAME IS GAY. (:


then at about 4.10 we left. we passed by the kallang river or what-so-ever and we saw people kayaking! SEH. then me and junmin spotted this vballer on the kayak. but we werent sure if that was her. so we decided to stay there and wait for her to make a u-turn so we can take a closer look and confirm that it was her. after waiting for quite long we gave up& walked to the bus-stop. GAY LA.

took 30 then 51 home.



oh HA, now i know that junmin da gay and huiling reads my blog. i always thought that no one reads my gay entries.


deception. facade. whatever you call it.
im not petty.
im just trying to wipe it off.
maybe what i say is totally contradicting.


5:49 PM


OHH! feltay is back! :DD
SO MANY THINGS TO TELL HER. -.-"
yay. maybe i wont feel that fuck-ish then. (:



im leaving home at 9.45am, go to school to put my zh& then maybe i will go walk around, since i didnt do that yesterday, thanks to nattttttty. hahas, but im feeling broke. are shops open quite early? i hope i dont change my mind again.


8:33 AM
Tuesday, June 14, 2005


OUCH. ouch. bloody ulcars.
i left the house with a bored look. then i entered the mrt with my most dao& bored look.
the lecture was alright. better than the last one. and i met that zhangguoliang guy. he's a complete arse. yea u knw. pervert.
ehh okay we did experiments today. was quite fun& maybe a once-in-a-lifetime experience for me? and i realised i totally cannot cope in science. one of my lousiest subjects- UGH.
hmm the content was DNA fingerprinting. not just fingerprinting, those like forensic science& stuffs. the theories were kinda hard to understand. i didnt gettit anyway. but i liked the DNA things. cool and totally awesome. (=
one thing, i was kinda isolated from my grp. but who cares? i dont care. nananipoopoo. -.-"



&i just got this bad news. i have to go school tmr. wth. just to pass waikit my zh. -.-" nvm! i shall go see what to do tmr.
oh anyway, u know eating has became a chore for me. i was eating macs before the lecture and i felt like vomitting everything i ate out. puke. bleahg.




HAHAHA; CBOX IS DOWN, I DONT CARE.
these few days feel so fuck-ish. hmm no one'll understand. im not gonna care& i dont care also. why should i care? fuck. i just wnna sleep and sleep and nver wake up. this insipid life. UGH. i dont like. the homework. one fucking pile. WTH. i feel damned distracted everyday. BLEAHG. dunno by what. unknown thing. funnaye. i wnna go back to sch. i wnna be JAMMED pack with loads of stuff to do everyday. i wanna have co everyday. i wnna go third lang. yay. then i can forget my boredom& that distraction will just go away.
i think im paranoid. &i hate the feeling.


10:26 PM


oh ya, did i mention yesterday before i was about to doze off i suddenly remembered that there's my life sciences lecture today.? god, it's gonna be boring like the last one. =S boring, expensive& i dont understand. cheem. &i hope i dont meet nathaniel there again, ehh so gay can. maybe stella? then fun. :DD

&yes one thing. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRISCILLA! (:



im so bored that i actually went to practise my erhu& zhonghu. the zhonghu sounds low& the erhu sounds high. lmao. i dont think it's supposed to be that way, cos i hven practised my zh in like a very very long time. junmin, if you're reading this, I GOT PRACTISE!! hahas.
i went to download this limewire program thing. nat told me about it last time. it's GOOD. yay. now i can have ALL my songs. whee. right, so i've been spending my day downloading songs. you cant say i downloaded a million, but just a few. like got 20? that's little. -.-" i dunno what to download! &my comp is rather lag, make me damned pekchek. nvm. oh i like dont phunk with my heart! &i still like helena. thr's this unknown thing about it that attracts me to that song. lol gay.
i replaced the current that thing you do in didum to ehh the same song, but this one's downloaded, clearer. u knw, when im listening to that thing you do, i was thinking about camp& all the instructors. miss camp alot! gay. bigbang. :DD
im gonna go walk around before the lecture. grab a bite before i go. look for presents- I OWE PEOPLE ALOT ALOT. IM SO SORRY!
yay. we gonna play bball on thurs? GOOD. i like, then dont need to stay at home. lol. my dad's damned easy to persuade. hahaha. im so lazy today. i feel like kicking the homework.


BLEAHG. im bored. but im lazy to get my arse outta the house. where should i go? i should go prepare now in case i change my mind AGAIN later. -.-"


2:32 PM


i slept at 1am last night and got awoken at an unearthly hour today. 6.55am. LOL-
my parents were making a hella racket in the house, forcing me to wake up& to rub those sleep away. cos my dad, my sis& i were supposed to go pray our grandfather (he's already pushing up daisies) today. BLEAHG. it's his death anniversary today. this totally slipped my mind last night. &to think i was chatting online until 1am instead of sleeping. oh well. but in the end my dad& i went, cos my sis was too lazy. told ya she's a fat arse.


fetched my mum to work. she's acting like a radio again. yeah those kind in the morning, she goes complaining& scolding& whatever you call it. noisy arse. -.-" we were overjoyed when we finally dropped her off. (x
then we went t get some stuffs to pray. stuffs like food. to pray. yeah that's right. &we made our way to changi. ooooh i passed by daphne's house just now. i wnna go her house so much man! miss her LOADS. ha but she gtta prepare for her prelims, how sad. &she attends this alw thing, i dunno whats that.


and and and, this is ONE of the few days when im contented with my hair. -.-"
my dad made me carry the joss sticks down the stairs, and it's like one whole bunch of it. lighted ones, they emit smoke. *cough. suffocation.
oh yeap. the part where you burn the incense paper was like, HAHA. i totally dunno how to burn, just anyhow throw. lol.
my grandfather passed away in 2003, now it's 2005. 2 years already. but it seems like he died yesterday. -.-"



nvm im acting gay today. i feel sleepy.


10:09 AM
Monday, June 13, 2005


EHH. u knw what. i feel INFANTILE talking to pri sch kiddos. -.-"
whatever. im just listening, making some noises every now& then.
i wnna tell them- CHILDISH LEH.


11:43 PM


U KNOW WHAT?
i sudddenly felt hardworking. i felt the need and urge to do my holiday homework. serious, not kidding. i feel like studying the entire day tmr. there's no use staying online. nothing to do. nothing to do. nothing to do. i need homework. ugh. im going to buy chinese newspapers tmr. im going to do my jianbao tmr. im gonna do my chengyus. 10 at least. im going t do a few pages of jap revision worksheets. im going to read my classic. im gonna skimp through the newspapers for geog articles. im going to look at my ROOM. my TABLE. messy. MESSY. room&table. MESSY. im going to do my MATH, the one from the textbook. &the worksheets. i hate mobiao, i wont read it till next week. i hate english book review, i will do it next week. i will write& COMPLETE my vjc application form THIS WEEK. i will write my essay for the application form. i will do my jap essay next week. file my FILES next week. do lit cover next week. HOMEWORK HOMEWORK HOMEWORK . that's all that i can think of now. oh, and the projects. EXCLUDED. :DD


yay. i love my cousin. she never fails to cheer me up. (: &now who am i talking to? some people i donno. LMAO. psle, makes me feel YOUNG & vibrant. LOL-


11:02 PM


i got so many bloooody ulcars in my mouth, cos of the braces!! =S BLEAHG. ouch pain.


9:53 PM


i went to get that chengyu book just now. cost me $3.80. for that puny little book. ugh. now im BROKE. baaa.


&i used my rusty brain today in tuition. MATH. hahas. got it working.
poland is damned gay today! LOL-
anyway. i HATE graphs. &motion geometry. im sure gnna flop my graph test, the one on the first day of sch. =S


right. nat's acting abit weird. she comes online& she goes-
"fleaflea"
"cuteflea"
"i miss you"
"fleaflyfleaflo"
WTH. HOW GAY ISSIT.
i sense something wrong. -.-"


8:44 PM


RIGHT. my dad was scolding me cos i didnt want to take a lift from him to the bus-stop. KB!
i woke up at 7.01am, according to my hp clock. then after that i went to that bus-stop. when i was crossing the road my dad& mum happened to turn past& KB they were scolding me while they were driving away. -.-" i got pangseh-ed by wanxin. WL! damned tmd suay like ytd. -.-" nvm i was feeling so bleah-ry in the morning. morning blues.
went to school& met up with nat outside 2A. ransacked that FOREST locker and couldnt find my books! WL. thr goes my hope of doing chengyu. ugh. then we sat at the foyer while waiting for nat's dad to come pick us up. saw amelia. HAHA. nat's dad soon came& we left for nat's house. :DD
ate something that nat's father bought at her house. aww i was feeling super full already. we went downstairs to the kembangan cafe& STUDY. get it right, it's STUDY. did math, since we didn't have chengyu. mdm tay's sure an evil PIG! i did 1hour of MATH, and it's like 19-20. LOL.
went to play bball. :DD darned SHUANGS. &we played this gay game, like we take turns to shoot at a particular spot, if u never get in then u must do one more than the original. i know it's GAY. nat was on a lame laughing frenzy. drts. and our lay-ups were totally GAY. ugh!
left at 2.30, since my kb father keep kb-ing say SOL worry this& that, not like im 5 years old right? ARSE-, so i went home.



STILL GOT TUITION LATER, HOW INSIPID. =S


4:25 PM
Sunday, June 12, 2005


i was sleeping happily. ugh. then my dad and mum had to make so much noise that i woke up, and then i felt so thristy and i looked around for water and then now i cant sleep! i came online. i feel gay. bleah. stupid wanxin ask me to meet him tmr to go sch tgt. diao! wtv, just go lo. then stand thr and decide what bus to take. LOL-


11:51 PM


UGH. TODAY WAS DAMNED SUAY.
i left the house, walked to hougang mrt. SHIT. i forgot to bring my wallet. the time was 4.13pm, im running late already. i ran back to my house from the mrt, &then i brisk-walked back to the mrt station. blooody i was feeling like an oven!
right, so i was late. worst still, my hair was in a mess. i felt darned pekchek and was helplessly trying to make it back in place but i failed. then i reached, chionged into the toilet to make my hair& then while fumbling through my bag i got pricked by my stupid comb. -.-"
late for tuition already. went in feeling dazed. oh during the whole lesson my eyes were damned pekchek. like they are soooo tired and i had to keep blinking to avoid blur images. my eyesight is deproving alright! so i felt distracted and was stupidly trying to pull my eyelids and rub my eyes. and worst still i felt super hungry during the lesson. ugh!
after the lesson i went to buy apple pie to eat. i got cheated by mcdonalds! WL.
at the mrt my slipper almost fell into the gap btween the mrt& the platform. -.-"
&then i saw gay people in the mrt! their actions were gay. thr was this guy, he was smiling to everyone in the station. and he was happily dancing around or what. GAY. *rolls eyes
when i reached home i got another nag from my mum. right, one of her bad moods again. SHEESH!



i feel sick here. i feel like vomitting and then i have a headache. ugh.


8:39 PM
Saturday, June 11, 2005


im looking for this singer, but i dont knw the name. LOL- just wnna knw who's the singer in the pic. name, &what band he's from. HAHA. im just being gay, cos im so bored. thr's practically no one to crap with online. and my hp has been silent& intact for multiple days already. thr're many reasons for that. i realised i can live wout my hp! chucks it into the chute. maybe i should go do my math. is it a bad idea? im having tll lessons tmr. and i finished my summary on new york the big apple an hour or so ago. i didnt know what was i scribbling about. i cant phrase words properly and my vocab is utterly inapt. not good. in other words, suckaye. the worst thing is, the summary passage is one that you might strain to understand the meaning. if you have lousy vocab like mine. ughs. alright, it isn't that difficult. just one of my stupid excuses. actually im still supposed to do my journal& the work for the past two weeks. im just lackadaisical. but, im on the final chapters of the da vinci code. and im gonna start on to kill a mockingbird one soon, in order to complete that book review. you know why i cant do my homework? NO1. i left my chengyu book in sch. chengyu is the easiest to do among ALL. NO2. i always forget to buy chinese newspapers and also im too lazy to get my butt to the newspaper stall to get it. oh and i simply dont know what to choose for chinese newspapers cos i dont even understand a word. NO3. i dont understand what mr goh means by 'PLS CUT 2 GEOG NEWSPAPER ARTICLES FOR HOLIDAY HOMEWORK..' which he wrote nonchalently on the board, expecting us to understand what he means. right. so what are we supposed to do?! NO4. i dont get the part where ms wee says book review. issit supposed to be a book review or a review on the author?! HUH. NO5. the book mobiao is SUPER DUPER BORING. like i said, i dont understand chinese. NO6. MDM TAY IS EVIL. if she wants to retire, then let it be! why must she leave a pile of holiday homework for us?! initially i thought that the homework she left us was merely 3 fragile pages of math which i can trample over after finishing it effortlessly. but it so happens that on a particular fateful day i took a look at the worksheets and GOSH! it's like 19 questions on a page. u know, math has like 19a, 19b and so on? yes it's that kinda of stuff she gives us. SHEESH! oh. and she's so kind to have a test for us on the first day of school.

oh yes it's keni's birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY (:
&you know i cant smile wout you.


10:33 PM


i like my braces. i like the colors! i love orange! i love the pale yellow power chain! :DD
i dont wear BRIGHT braces colors to tell people i wear braces okay! mad arse-


8:55 PM


I CAN SLEEP EXTREMELY LATE& WAKE UP QUITE EARLY.
someone asked me this question a moment ago-
"what's so bad about the middle finger?"
i thought. what a quizzical question! in fact, there's nothing bad about the middle finger. HAHA.
&then another question was posed.
'how about fuck?'
actually i reckon there's nothing, absolutely nothing wrong with the middle finger& the word fuck. i think it's the mindset that people instill it that these two are inter-connected& that they arent good. Which means they are bad. EVIL.
ehh anyway i woke up just in time for my dental appointment.
RIGHT. now my colours are NOTBAD. (x
the upper jaw is entirely orange
the lower jaw is pale yellow. but it's the power chain instead of the normal one.
my teeth feels tight. but it isnt pain. wait, maybe it's pain. i dunno.
argh. i hate my mum. she's one hella a bitch. i hate her mood swings. she sucks. ugh. it's my luck to have sucha mother. i wnna kick her arse man. X=
WOOF. maybe i should do my lit cover page now. i feel UTTERLY bored.
swing, swing from all the tangles of
my heart is crushed by a former love
can you find a way
to help me carry on
wish cast into the sky
im moving on
sweet beginnings do arise
bury me
carry me away. away. away..


1:15 PM
Friday, June 10, 2005


ohyea, the 9pm show ROCKED! (x
but come to think of it, it's really unrealistic!
i feel foolish. utterly. im just shunning everything.
i want to change my braces colour. i need BETTER colours. SHEESH*
right. my head is aching& spinning in many many many awful rounds. dizzy.
i think it's due to the radiation from the computer after i use it for like umpteeen times a day?! ugh my eyesight is like deproving. ouch.
who's gonna watch inuyasha later?? MEMEME! *raises hand-
MAYBE I NEED TO GET SOME REST, LIKE WHAT NAT SAID, TO FIX MY HEADACHE.
ehh. can those things about frisbee stop flying around? i didnt even acknowledge that stupid name! LAME- there's no such personORthing as frisbee, it's just a sport which i dont enjoy. &hello? I HAVE SUPER SOLID PROOF ALRIGHT. THERE YOU GO. NOW SHUT. (x
&when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
it gets hard, but it wont take away my love
im hre wout you-
super duper rocking song! (:
what if imagination really becomes reality?


10:20 PM


i woke up late today! at about 9.55& i was still thinking it was 8.55am. DRATS. yea so i was late. LATE. Ughs.
took 72 to tampines& grabbed something to eat and then made my way to tampines library. AMAZING that i could make my way there. *grins*
right, weiyan,nat& wangwang were alrd thr. i went over and sat thr for hardly 5 mins, this librarian came& told me that handphones were not allowed in the library and that we couldnt sit there to discuss our project. SHITTAYE. so we got chased outta the library& i was telling myself i wont go to THAT library ever again. DRTS.
then we walked over to the interchange& took 293 to weiyan's house.
weiyan's house resembles my old house. totally. LOL-
&the goldfish are SO interesting& cute. (:
nothing much interesting thr, just did that stupid chinese project. twc is a total arse! UGH.
we just settled on a story, told everyone of us that we must memorise our script& then we left in a hurry, because we wanted to go to tm to take neos. LOL!
went to eat at the food court. the food was okay.
then we walked over to century square to get a present for wangwang's senior. ugh. wangwang spent a whole stupid like 45 min hesitating what present to buy for her senior& in the end she only bought this stupid naruto wristband. waste time!
then we all went home.





i finished ONE WHOLE bottle of fresh milk today. (:


6:06 PM


i hate change
you changed
i dont like you to change
i want back the old you
i hate the new you
go away- ugh.


5:33 PM
Thursday, June 09, 2005


you should let me love you
let me be the one to
give you everything you want& need
BON VONYAGE feltay! :D

I did MATH, you know what is MATH? MATHEMATICS. I did until question 19! MATH. MATHEMATICS. ALGEBRA. MATHS. MATHEMATICS. I'm ONE diligent kid! *rolls eyes*
Two new add-ons to da mona family. I cant possibly announce right here in public who i added yeah? DUH-
Im getting hooked to that 9pm show! AHH. (x It's the finale tmr! Ugh.
Anw i eat so less these days. I.e. i wake up everyday at around 9-10am, then i come online until it's near 12pm. I would then buy lunch. And then slacking comes in. Dinnertime, i eat HALF of my dinner& gave the rest to my sister. Besides, the part where i slack does not have food included. I just dont feel like eating. I lost my appetite, sheesh! Nvm GOOD laa. (x
And the worst part is that i have this STUPID ulcar at the gum's of the lower jaw& the braces make it SO pain cos it keeps scratching against it& it's not my fault! Ugh. Pain. PAIN.



i dont even understand you
why do you even confide in me
hard to explain


10:47 PM


Ugh. I started on the homework. Mdm tay's outta kill us! OMG. SO MUCH. Is this our farewell gift? That's SO evil!


4:28 PM


Darn it. I broke my promise! I msged today. Ugh. But i will NOT exceed 30 a day.


12:54 PM


I realised dhs really loves the music&arts side when i visited our sch's website just now. Sheesh! Biased! Dhsco has the most population right? I heard that we get the most money among all the ccas. But nevertheless, i still love dhsco! YAY WE ROCK. The dazu-s rock, for me a first-timer, and da seniors rock, esp junmin, huiling& peiyu, and xyz rocks, &the songs we play rock too! Though it's absolutely tiring having to learn and play all those difficult & fast songs. HAHA. Im feeling gay.



Lunchtime. (:


11:45 AM


That stupid word or phrase keeps reminding me of you. Ugh, just get outta my mind.


10:46 AM


for you i'd cross the world
i'd do anything.




ROAR. Im in dire need of a new blogskin! MOO.
Ehh. I think i knew what you meant when you asked me that thing ytd. Just that i turned the whole thing around& made this stupid u-turn. Drts.
I saw this picture- OOH. Rocks. But i dont think it expresses me. Hmm. Anw, i must find another member of the mona family. Simply rocks.
Anw, im not gonna sms anyone for hmm..today, saturday. But tomorrow will be an exception! Cos we're gonna meet up right? Yeap, i need da great communications. But actually sunday i wont be sms-ing anyone, since ft's going overseas until like tuesday!? Wah. I can save a whole load of sms -(:



Rotting away at home again. Sheesh. Rotting aint fun! NOT FUN. Ugh. I need something to do. Something like homework? HELL DARN NO. But i really really really have to start on that sickening pile of rubbish cos i told bock that day 'i will still finish before you in the end!'. Right. It doesnt seem to be coming true.



Anyway i've got the flu bug. ARGH. Runny-ish nose. Audrey Lim Wenqian is an ARSE! SHE STOLE MY DREAM PHONE& HAOLIAN TO ME OVER MSN YESTERDAY!




falling
falling
falling
i always falling behind;


10:08 AM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005


I think i can forget about going out and play already. My entire allowance is spent on paying that stupid phone bill! UGH. WAHLAO.

I just off-ed my phone and I WILL NOT TURN IT ON UNTIL SUNDAY.


11:57 PM


SHIT. my sms overceed 1000. my hp bill shot up to a high price. I MUST HIDE MY HP.


11:46 PM


THAT 120 MINUTES WASNT THAT BAD. (=
i was listening to this song on the radio today.
it's rather spastic& a kinda techno song. i didnt like it! but i remembered it cos it was spastic.
one part of the lyrics goes like that-
'bang bang i shot you dead'
the tune was spastic! absolutely.
anyway, i like these songs now.
-obsession
-you&me
-yeah
-let me love you
-you make me wanna
im gonna upload them onto my blog! (:


ALRIGHT! another stupid add-on to MONA FAMILY! (8 US&our MONA FAMILY. :D
Lets see..how many members do we have now? SIX OOHLALA MEMBERS! (x
I liked that one feltay just did! i saw it from far& OMG, it's like so fitting! &da mona is sleeping! Beautiful piece of ART. Im gonna create a new folder for da MONA FAMILY! <33 another one's coming in!


Right. Anyway erhu lesson, mary was actually praising me. The 120 mins flew like an eagle. HAHAHAH. The high pitched notes, they were awful. Esp the low ones. Ugh. I played so loudly liked i never did before. What a miracle! &i didnt even get any practise, &mary said i improved! (x HEHE.




OOH i love da teevee when it's at 9pm! hahas.


&i dont wanna fall to pieces
i just wanna SIT& STARE at you.


8:40 PM


OH DARNED. Im getting so so so so so so so bloody evil these days. EHH-






Another two new add-ons t the Mona family. I would love t do da glam queen's one but, feltay insists that she does it. Nvm. That stead's one looks the best so far! (x It looks purr-fect. Really. I dont think she's that EHH-GLY if she's wout her specs. She looks better. Wow, she's really suited for that mona lisa pic, cos her photo& everything, the positionin fits in like a jigsaw puzzle. Wait till ya see it. It's gonna be nice. HAHA.

Hmm bad news. Junmin just told me that today we're gonna have 2hours of erhu lesson with mary. Ugh. But we arent gonna have lessons next week then, just nice since da drummin festival is here. Oohs. Yay. I didnt get much practise after da co trng camp ended. Sheesh. Nvm. Im gonna go out soon t find some things. (8 But i still cnt imagine da thought of having 120min tgt with mary, &she's gonna havta scream at us. Sheesh*




NEW EMAIL: seventeenth_@hotmail.com
Dont go foolishly addin' da idiotme91 one, that one's already full.
Does a new email means starting anew? Drts. ((:




Who'a gna be my nxt target? Hmm. HAHA.


2:09 PM


Ehh. Slept late but woke up early. How miraculous.







Whatever. Happy bdae bryan. Stop gabbering all those irritating jap words or phrases! MAD ARSE. Right. Happy birthday. :D
Baa. Moo. Meow. Woof. Drats, im getting so sianned everyday. Rotting away at home, refusing to do my work. Right. Deprived of money. Sheesh. I want mega bucks.
IM GONNA START ON MY HW K.



Today thr's erhu lesson. HATE IT.
&fri we're going to do project at da LIBRARY.
Yay. I feel like going out before erhu lesson. I will& i must.






I need a new blogskin. Im still lazy to do one.


10:59 AM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005


I hope i get a fever& i can sleep the whole day.





Say it aint so, i will not go, turn the lights off, carry me home.
ALL THE SMALL THINGS. (=





Bleah. We're not that busy rights. Every particular day we're free then the other person say "cannot". HAHAS. Seems like we dont have a day when everyone's free! Alright! Finally decided on a day. (:
Feel bored. OH YAY! DENTAL APPT THIS SAT! (x
Simply love crapping with auddie.


10:14 PM


UGH. Just remembered that thr's erhu lesson tmr!
x(


10:02 PM


HAHA.




Like i said, i dont think before i wear, therefore it results in my stupid attire today: PE shirt and that orange shorts.



Right. I was EARLY, something that you could be surprised at, but wangwang and jing2 were like so bloody late and we had to laze our arses around waiting for those two dua pais. Wangwang came at 9.30 and jing came at, sheesh, i cant rmb. SENILE.
We finally got onto our feet and started playing bball. Played one pathetic match and then we were like- UGH, so tired.
NAT HAS A NEW NAME! MAGNET. (mad nat)
We were on this frenzy running around all of the bball courts do layups, but ALL FAIL. Ehh. That's so SHEESH. Baa. Meow. Moo.


&then here comes the stupidest part of all. Jing spotted this chair, i supposed it's used for the referee or what sorts, and we used it! It's damn high. So we kinda slam da dunk, but i didnt, cos i was afraid i would drop and die. LOL- Jing was being self-fanatic, asking and pleading us to take her 'slamming da dunk' and MUST see her stupid face. She's a total arse.


Lazed around. Found the weather too awful and decided to leave around 12 or so.
Nat& i went to bugis. Took two rounds of GAY neoprints and then we went to have yoshinoya. Ended up broke, i finished this whole week's allowance already! Desperate for finding money to watch movie, but to no avail. Decided to go to nat's house to play bball. LOL-

Right. So i went to nat's house. FULL OF PROBLEMS HOUSE. Hahas.
Went down to play bball! (: But we sat there and waited, cos there were pro people playing match in both the courts. Sheesh. I hate that asbs adult wearing that army shirt. SHITTAYE. He sucks. He smokes and then he act cool by taking out his shirt. And he looks like a FAT ARSE. He's not even good. The two boys are so much better than the rest of the adults. There was one who chopped 7 3-pts in a row! Inferiority complex. Nat: I think i prefer the humble one. WHAT A GLORIOUS SIGHT. Nat waited for the other to do the same thing but he went off soon and there goes nat's hope. HAHA.


Soon we got our chance to play bball. Utterly spastic and lousiness. Moo.
Played until like 5.30 or so, went home. Da long journey home. Sheesh!







IM TIRED& DONT WISH T THINK OF ANYTHING.
Feltay's leaving on fri, im gonna be SO bored. BLOODY. Oh yeaps, safe journey to chenyang! (:


6:49 PM
Monday, June 06, 2005


Im feeling SO bored now.




Ugh. Da conversation didnt last long. Sheeesh. *
FELTAY DONT THINK I NV SEE YOUR 'LAST WORDS' BEFORE YOU WENT OFFLINE ALRIGHT! I SAW IT, CLEARLY. Right, &i will remember it.





Get some sleep later& and i'll be on my way t school t play bball! (x Maybe we will have the time to take some spastic and fanciful neoprints. I will shop for shifu's present, maybe shop isnt the best word to use, HUNT. Grrr.



I felt so suakoo-ish today when i went out for tuition! I think i dont think before i wear. Drts. What, i shouldnt elaborate to disgrace myself. HAHA. NOTHING. I saw two madmen after tuition today! Guess hougang is the authentic hougang chalet yeah? True. Right. So one was in front of me, the other one was behind. And they were singing spastic songs which i couldnt decipher what on earth they were singing about. Bold& courage? They were singing so loud in public! LOL- Crazy arses. So i can say that i was sandwiched between two lunatics today? HA. I think im one myself.







JEALOUS AH?
Right, right. Luckaye gal. (8 <33 (:


11:08 PM


Aint fun w/o you- ;





What have i NOT done:
-jianbao4&5
-copying of chengyu 161-200 [left my book at school]
-read that mobiao book[it's boring.]
-do 10 pages of xizi at least
-math sup ex[overdued]
-math p187 q5&7 [due on 22/6]
-jap compo
-jap revision exercises[one whole stack]
-2 geog newspaper articles[what are we spposed to do for that?]
-finding the landscapes for art
-english newsletter, genre:classics
-file english file properly
-lit file cover page
-file lit file properly
-d&t project [suckaye]
-chinese yuxi:in a group[got kaocha somemore!]
-acc project [most boring]
-study for math test [first day of school there's a math test.]



Sheesh. So i havent done a single thing. Not even a sweat of it. Drats. Im gonna be in hot soup.
Been online for the whole day. Yes, the whole day. Im like feeling ultimate mundane-ness!? Right, im chatting with da pervert natalie gan and we both are feeling SIAN. Kill me!

I must calculate when im free, go play bball! YEA. (= I wanna sms * but i dont dare t! Damned. Hahas. Wait till he comes online then say. (8 Now im dying here alrights. Of everything. !





Baaa~ 5pm and i'm off. (x


4:00 PM


YES! My world renowned Mona Ryan is completed! Hahas. I think im one of the most got-nothing-to-do people in the world. Im like so lame to the extent that i make spastic photo montages. Yes, this Mona Ryan idea was actually suggested by me myself and feltay! (: Hohoho. Now when i see kelvin and zhihe online i shall send them. :D BUT NOT RYAN LAA DUH. You will break out in gazillions of laughter. Hahaha. I was laughing when i was doing the montage. It's really damned funnaye, though it's not the ELITE photo montage that we can reckon, at least it's SOMETHING. =)





Ask the photo montage from me pls! LOL-
Im gonna start my homework today. I feel so slack. Sheesh.
YAY! Going to school tmr to play bball. (=







Happiness is shortlived right? (: Maybe.


12:22 PM


i love cookies!
chocolatey,lip smackin' goodness all in your mouth.. what's there not to love? so grab your cookie today! And munch with me! Munch! Munch! Munch!








YAY. I feel that life is going so ever-smoothly now for me. (: SHIFU will know what im gabbering about! Lalala. Cant wait cant wait. :D
Unless if i meet that UNFORTUNATE thing again, which i most probably will, then haha all the profanities will start spilling outta my mouth. Uncleaned. X=




It's 0034 now, 7th of june. Right. I shall have my sleep and then when i wake up i really have to commence on my homework. Sheesh.
Tuesday- Im going to school to play bball with some people. (:
Hahahaha. I must find a day to go outta and play ball with him. =] It's blooody hell funny.







But, im currently reading the da vinci code. The author is a total prodigy mans. Sometimes i dont even understand what he means. So bloody exciting and thrilling book! LALA.
I think im a little short of new and rich vocab here, better get updated. READ MY BOOKS AND THE NEWSPAPER AND DO TLL HOMEWORK AND LEARN THE COOL WORDS. YAY.




One of these days, im gonna go to bintan or what. Dunno. I will just go. HAHAH.
My dad's obsessed about his herbalife thing. He brags and brags all day long and whatever he says we all anticipate it.


12:25 AM
Sunday, June 05, 2005


THIS IS LIKE A BEAUTIFUL DREAM COME TRUE. (:








Im grinning like an utter fool in front of the computer. :D


9:59 PM


FUCK IT LAHS.





Everytime i talk about something nice, YOU WILL MENTION THAT FUCKING PERSON THAT I HATE. SHUTTUP LAHS.







I still enjoy talking to shifu. (:
I would rather change into a bimbo and flirty arse rather than hang out with that fucking asshole that WE hate.
Right, i think im changing into a flirt. Utter. Sheesh. Mutations.
WHY SHOULD I GIVE A DAMN.
Anyway, i embarked on my FIRST step towards victory already.
SHIFU WILL GUIDE ME ALONG. [=




I HATE IT WHEN YOU MENTION HER.
GET A LIFE LAH.
I WISHED SHE DIDNT EVEN APPEAR TO DISRUPT MY ENTIRE LIFE.
NOW MY SICKENING LIFE IS RUINED CAN, ALL RUINED BY HER, FUCKING ASS.



Ask me a question, i wont beat around the bush already. I will just tell you off directly in your face. Like what i feel. I feel fuck-ed. I dont even wanna go back to school, see you two and then i feel like killing people. I know someone in class share the same sentiments as me, we wanna fuck her. Actually many people wanna fuck that big ego. SUCKAYE ASSS. I just dont understand why you wanna be DIFFERENT , love her tooooo much or what shit. Hang around with her and neglect the rest of us. Shitty. Even you ask me i wont be so thick skinned to go along right? LIKE I FEEL IM BLOODY SHIT EXTRA. Dont ask me ANYTHING related to her. I love and cherish the thought of us being in different classes next year. Its gonna be sanctuary! Haven. Cant wait to run outta hell. Now what i need is patience. I dont need friends like YOU. Everyone is so darned hypocritical. True friends dont even exist in this world. Nothing good ever comes out.





Every plan i make, YOU come along and though she feel darned elated, we dont feel likewise.
Neither do i feel HAPPY. You're just chaos. Pandemonium and mayhem with destruction added into it to destroy things. SCRAM LAH. Just so bloody extra. EVERYTHING ALSO WANNA FIGHT WITH ME. I HATE PEOPLE WITH EGOS LIKE YOURS. CAN YOU JUST F OFF MY LIFE. ASSHOLE.


Audrey, shermaine will KNOW how i feel. YOU SUCK BIG TIME. GO AWAY. Abhorrent filthy shit.



REALLY, I HOPE YOU DO READ THIS ENTRY AND I KNOW YOU WILL DEFINITELY DISAPPROVE OF IT BUT WHO CARES NOW?


1:15 PM
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